So...
Happy Birthday Uncle N...
Some birthday, huh? I'm sorry we couldn't do much for it. But hey, at least we threw flowers at the harbor on Sunday... Sorry we missed April by the way. I wanted to, I remembered, but I guess everyone else kinda forgot...
I'm sorry, too by the way... I know my behavior and attitude is terrible. And I know it's my fault all of this happened. So I'm sorry... I'm sorry I caused all of this. Maybe if I had held up better, this wouldn't have happened... I'm sorry... and I miss you... Things fell apart when you left. I'm sorry I let them fall. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your birthday. I know you would have if you were here. We'd probably go out so some Chinese restaurant. Have a cake ready or something... Things were good then... But I wish... I could remember more of them.
So, Happy Birthday. You know I'll never forget...
Happy Birthday
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Yay, It's August :P
REASONS I HATE AUGUST:
1) it's back to school
2) Uncle N's birthday is kinda depressing
3) it's still not Autumn yet
I have felt SO alone these past couple of days, like, you have NO IDEA O_o"" I miss my friends, i miss getting a hug everyday, i miss talking and laughing together, the Chinese room, EVERYTHING T-T at home I'm tired and drained of energy. No one here gives a shit about me. No one listens. No one wants to. I need a hug... I wish i had somebody here to hold me, my best friends, a guy friend, Hyde, i don't care, i need someone. I just want to be held and know that SOMEONE wants me.
Yo quiero alguien aqui, por que NADIE esta aqui. Por que si esta alguien aqui, hitori ja nai yo... (mom's forcing Spanish on me and i still need to practice my Japanese)
And another thing, it's like everyone is paired up. All i see are couples T-T good for them, I'm happy for everyone, but it makes me feel kinda bad.
I want to be loved like that too. I want to know that someone will want to be there for me, doesn't care about my flaws, doesn't mind my obsession over Hyde, who WANTS to spend the rest of their life with me. And someone who'll read my writing...
I want a kiss D:
1) it's back to school
2) Uncle N's birthday is kinda depressing
3) it's still not Autumn yet
I have felt SO alone these past couple of days, like, you have NO IDEA O_o"" I miss my friends, i miss getting a hug everyday, i miss talking and laughing together, the Chinese room, EVERYTHING T-T at home I'm tired and drained of energy. No one here gives a shit about me. No one listens. No one wants to. I need a hug... I wish i had somebody here to hold me, my best friends, a guy friend, Hyde, i don't care, i need someone. I just want to be held and know that SOMEONE wants me.
Yo quiero alguien aqui, por que NADIE esta aqui. Por que si esta alguien aqui, hitori ja nai yo... (mom's forcing Spanish on me and i still need to practice my Japanese)
And another thing, it's like everyone is paired up. All i see are couples T-T good for them, I'm happy for everyone, but it makes me feel kinda bad.
I want to be loved like that too. I want to know that someone will want to be there for me, doesn't care about my flaws, doesn't mind my obsession over Hyde, who WANTS to spend the rest of their life with me. And someone who'll read my writing...
I want a kiss D:
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