This is Life, Welcome

Life is a struggle. Though perhaps some not as much of a struggle as others. I guess it all depends on what kind of a life you were born into and or the choices you’ve made in it. I don’t think we realize it, but a lot of the things that happen to us are in our control, cause I mean, of course not everything. We can’t manipulate death, or put a stop to sadness, or even stay happy all of the time, but we can definitely improve our situations by approaching it with a positive attitude. And I mean, what’s life without the struggle anyway, right? If everything came to us easily, how much worth would love be? Or any other kind of reward or sweetness? It’s because these things in life are such a struggle and hard to earn that makes it so precious and so special.

So… I think life is worth the risk and the pain and the sadness and whatever else we go through, because the outcome and the rewards I know will be worth all of it. It’s important not to ever give in or give up. Yeah, life has its difficulties and hardships and those brutal horrifying moments where we think that our whole world is just going to crash down upon us, and sometimes it’s true, it does end up crashing and shattering into God knows how many millions of pieces. But what we have to keep in mind is that, things don’t stay broken. It may seem like they do, but they don’t. One way or another they start piecing back together. Slowly, delicately, cautiously, and maybe some pieces end up coming apart again because, well, life has it’s ups and downs, so things will fix and then unravel a bit, but then you just fix them again.

Life is a process, made up of steps and stages to meet every individuals needs. That’s why there’s no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ way to getting better and why there are no guidelines on how to live your life. It’s because everyone’s different. And that’s okay. You can make up your own guidelines, and maybe they’re even the same kind of guidelines someone else needs.

So, after all of this, and you do heal, I’m not going to lie, there will be a mark, scar, or reminder of what has happened to you in your life. These things don’t disappear, but you can definitely make them stop bleeding. And in my opinion, it’s good to have that scar, because you can look back at it and say to yourself, ‘I can make it. I can hold on. I didn’t give up. I made it through this and I can keep going now matter what life throws at me. I am a survivor.’

Put simply, life can be a bitch. A huge one at that with major mood swings. But there are other times in life that are sweet and loving and fun. And what’s important is to always remember those moments, those little grains of time in our lives where we couldn’t stop laughing, or found out that the person we love loves us too, or when we finally accomplished something we’ve put all of our efforts into. It’s important to always remember the good things in life because these are the things that will keep you going and motivate you to not commit suicide, or hurt yourself, or to think more positively.

Life is such a precious gift that we have been given whether it was an accident, unwanted, or uncared for. It’s something that needs to be nurtured and loved because it’s so delicate. Now I know that maybe often we don’t think that life is all that wonderful. Perhaps, we don’t believe that life is so precious because it has been so cruel and cold to us. But you have to trust me. It does warm up and touch our wounds softly instead of smothering salt and lemon juice into them. It just takes time. Everything takes time. Some more than others depending on where you are in life, but they get better and you have to remember that.



Just keep holding on. You’ll get through it.

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Note to Self:

Don't speak your mind or try to talk about things with mom or your sister. They'll judge you and assume things, thinking they all ready know and won't listen to you.


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