Yay~ A Survey!!! :D

( ) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
(x) saw an amazing movie
(x) had your heart broken
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) done something you've regretted
(X) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) shopped at Hollister, Aeropostale, or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone
( ) broke a promise
( ) fell out of love
(x) lied
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) been disappointed by a close friend or friends
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolutions
(x) forgot your new years resolutions
(x) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idols (Hyde :3)
(x) changed your outlook on life (working on it still, but getting there)
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
( ) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up on something/someone important to you
( ) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
( ) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
(x) had friends who were (ARE) drifting away from you
( ) had a high cell phone bill
( ) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
(x) gotten sick
(x) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with people

School Has Begun

So it's back to long torturous hours of education, yippy :P

Whatever though, I'm just glad I get to see everyone again. Less time at home too XD and maybe this year will get some cute exchange students. I think this year is going to be an interesting one. Can't wait to see what happens later in the year.
Teachers so far are pretty awesome... except algebra D: damn Enenstein has got my mind running frantic!!! I HATE MATH. But I'm happy that this year I have a good English teacher, THANK GOD OO" it's about time. I need to catch up on grammar and vocabulary. And this year, I have an art class, AT LAST XD fuck yeah~!!! So far it's pretty good, but I miss Mrs. Purcell (art teacher from middle school) T-T she was great. History with Harrison is pretty cool too, he's kinda like Mr. Waller, except I like Waller more. Human Bio. teacher is really nice and my AP Psych. teacher is really nice too.
So other than math, I lucked out this year XD
Now let's wait and see what happens.


THREE CHEERS FOR GOOD ENGLISH TEACHERS!!!

Happy Birthday, Uncle N...

So...

Happy Birthday Uncle N...

Some birthday, huh? I'm sorry we couldn't do much for it. But hey, at least we threw flowers at the harbor on Sunday... Sorry we missed April by the way. I wanted to, I remembered, but I guess everyone else kinda forgot...
I'm sorry, too by the way... I know my behavior and attitude is terrible. And I know it's my fault all of this happened. So I'm sorry... I'm sorry I caused all of this. Maybe if I had held up better, this wouldn't have happened... I'm sorry... and I miss you... Things fell apart when you left. I'm sorry I let them fall. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed your birthday. I know you would have if you were here. We'd probably go out so some Chinese restaurant. Have a cake ready or something... Things were good then... But I wish... I could remember more of them.
So, Happy Birthday. You know I'll never forget...


Happy Birthday

Yay, It's August :P

REASONS I HATE AUGUST:

1) it's back to school

2) Uncle N's birthday is kinda depressing

3) it's still not Autumn yet


I have felt SO alone these past couple of days, like, you have NO IDEA O_o"" I miss my friends, i miss getting a hug everyday, i miss talking and laughing together, the Chinese room, EVERYTHING T-T at home I'm tired and drained of energy. No one here gives a shit about me. No one listens. No one wants to. I need a hug... I wish i had somebody here to hold me, my best friends, a guy friend, Hyde, i don't care, i need someone. I just want to be held and know that SOMEONE wants me.
Yo quiero alguien aqui, por que NADIE esta aqui. Por que si esta alguien aqui, hitori ja nai yo... (mom's forcing Spanish on me and i still need to practice my Japanese)
And another thing, it's like everyone is paired up. All i see are couples T-T good for them, I'm happy for everyone, but it makes me feel kinda bad.
I want to be loved like that too. I want to know that someone will want to be there for me, doesn't care about my flaws, doesn't mind my obsession over Hyde, who WANTS to spend the rest of their life with me. And someone who'll read my writing...


I want a kiss D:

I WENT TO THE VAMPS CONCERT!!!! ♥~HYDE~♥

I WENT TO VAMPS CONCERT TODAY!!!! HOLY FUCKING SHIT IT WAS AWESOME XD!!!!
(this was also my first concert by the way)


The Totally Awesome Concert:

HYDE: "Hello. I'm Hyde."

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "I love San Francisco"

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "eto..." *puts finger to dimple thinking of the word* "I like... steep" *pauses to think* "steep roads" *does little hand action to indicate "steep"* "I like it"

CROWD: AH~~~~~!!!

HYDE: "And I like..." *waits for it to quiet* "clam chowder"

CROWD: AH~~~~!!!!

HYDE: "uh... at fisherman's wharf"

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: *smiling, trying to think of how to say phrases in English* "I really like, Hyde street."

CROWD: AH~~~~!!!!!

HYDE: "This is like my city."

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: *smiling embarrassingly, trying to think of the words* "I also... bought" *smiles at how bad he is at speaking English* "Bought lots of clothes."

CROWD: AH~~~!!!!

HYDE: "Because" *waits for crowd to quiet a little* "it is so cold here in San Francisco." *pretends to shiver*

CROWD: *screaming*

(then he introduces Secret in My Heart and other songs. After, he's about to do I Gotta Kick Start Now, BUT....)

HYDE: *gets up to the mic. with an open mouth, about to say something. Then stops for a bit. Nothing comes out. He backs away and starts laughing at himself*

CROWD: AH~~~!!!!!

(later, after a few more songs)

HYDE: "Are you a happy fan?"

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "Are you, okay?"

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "I wanna see you go crazy."

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "Are you fucking ready?"

CROWD: *screaming*

HYDE: "Are you fucking ready?" he asks in a high pitch tone

CROWD: *screaming* (I'm deaf at this point btw)



So the concert was hella awesome XD Hyde is the sweetest~~ He's so cute when he's trying to speak another language~~~~ X3 Anyway, he didn't do the whole album since he has other cities to still travel to, but he did my favorite song~~~!!!! He sang it beautifully, Evanescent was sung PERFECTLY. He also did Sweet Dreams. I was about to cry listening to both of those songs, I was able to feel SOOO much emotion. His hair was all poofy and adorable too~~~ Lucky for the people in the front though, he spit on them XD he also tossed one water bottle and guitar picks (none of which i got). I knew ALL the songs and ALL the lyrics XD it was so awesome. He's jumping around and stuff. His screams are awesome~~~~ His accent is the cutest~~~ The man is even hotter in person. He kissed his cross necklace during the song Jesus Christ. He was flipping off the crowd and making faces, licking his smexy lips. He smiled often so that made me happy. I love his smile~~~~ I love to see him happy, cause then it makes me happy ^^ I also loved the long guitar, bass, and piano introduction to Sweet Dreams. He sat down and played guitar just out of the crowd's reach XD he such a teaser~~ His voice was fantastic, he's everything I ever imagined. Seeing everyone with their hands out stretched towards him made me think they were almost like, placing a blessing upon him ^^ The lights were awesome too, like, 3-D and there was mist XD I loved it when he would put his hands up to his head and sorta comb his fingers through his hair~~~ His voice is a drug, the man is an addiction X3

After math: I couldn't hear ANYTHING and I lost my voice. (which I wanted to do XD) I was also very hot and sweaty, but when we went outside the fog took care of that ^^"

Haido-sama, domo arigatou gozaimasu~ ^^


Minna-san, sweet dreams~ ^^

I MET HYDE TODAY~!!! ♥♥♥ ♥~HYDE~♥

HOLY FUCK!!! I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!!! XD


My Meeting with Hyde~:


ME: *waiting in line, staring at Hyde with a beaming smile on my face*
*finally walks up to him and KAZ, who are sitting at a table hidden from the crowd*
"Konbanwa" I said quietly. *shaking, trembling*

HYDE: "Konbanwa" he repeated quietly *adorable smile*

ME: *dies inside* (I really wanted to say "ogenki desu ka?" but the words never came out of my mouth ^^") *smiles nervously and still shaking*

HYDE: *finishes signing my poster after KAZ, and then hands it back to me*

ME: "Arigatou gozaimasu" I thanked him quietly *smiling and trembling*

HYDE: "Arigatou" he said quietly *still smiling sweetly*
*holds out his hand for me to shake*

ME: *wipes my sweaty hand on my pants before taking his hand and shaking*
*smiles nervously*
*shakes hands with KAZ*
*walks away the happiest person on the planet*
*dies inside for a second time*


END
(btw, I couldn't breathe the entire time)


Okay so, first off... HE'S EVEN MORE ADORABLE IN PERSON~~~!!!!! That smile is the sweetest~~~~ His cute cheeks and REALLY soft hands X3 I'm not even kidding, his guitar playing hands are really soft~~ He was wearing sunglasses that you could see into and of course, an all black outfit XD He was wearing a ring too. His hair was fluffy and looked so soft~~ and... HE'S JUST AS SHORT AS I IMAGINED!!! He is NOT tall, making him all the more adorable X3 Some people were trying to do those slide-pound hand shakes, and he was SO awkward about it, but it looked like he was having so much fun meeting everyone~ Some of the girls were in tears, I was about to be one of them but I held myself together XD When he was talking to me, I think he knew I was scared XD It was so cute, I sorta felt like we were whispering to each other.

I can't believe I shook hands with and talked to my favorite person in the entire universe~~~~

Now I don't want to wash my hands~ XD


I LOVE YOU, HYDE~~~~~!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

PAGE 100~~!!!!!! FUCK YEAH XD

YES!!! I FINALLY DID IT!!! PAGE 100 BABY~~~ I can't believe it, it's not even the end of summer yet. I reached my goal, YES~~~

Also i just got back from a road trip in Oregon. Hella fun, I was there for a week XD


MY TRIP TO OREGON:


So we're driving, it takes 7 hours to get there (great =P) we end up stopping at a few beaches along the way. After, we reach the hotel and go exploring on another beach and around the town.

The next day is mail boats (basically a large jet boat) it took us down a river, super fun going down the rapids but SUPER COLD in the morning and we got so wet. There also was this super adorable black kitty at the lunch stop =3 Very snooty and very lazy though. After that we went down to more beaches. (we must have went to 12 different beaches total through the whole trip oo"") There also this one spot where you could literally stand on the edge of a cliff. Mom didn't let us get too close ^^"

Next day, it's back on the road, 2 hours to the next hotel. We stop at a place called Game Park and it's a "zoo" kind of area. Small but they had really cool animals and umm... let's just say, you were able to get closer to them than you wanted to. They were not secure. They could easily get out if they wanted to, and that white tiger did not look too friendly oo"" At the park we held multiple baby animals including a leopard (that was trying to be ferosious, didn't work X3 he was so cute), ferrets (like the ones in my story =D), possum and lion cubs. We were able to pet the older animals. After the park, we road in dune buggies and they took us on the dunes. Like REALLY REALLY HILL TALL MOUNTAINS OF SAND. I am not even kidding. So much fun though, we went up to 80 miles an hour. The sand hitting against your face really hurt though >///< when we were through i had sand in my hair and ears. Even in my nose =P So we go to the hotel, wash up and end of the day.

Morning in Oregon again and it's off to the Tillamook cheese factory, and hour and a half drive and we went though the whole place in a half hour... But we got good ice cream there =D After we are heading back to the hotel and stop at a haunted lighthouse (that's not really haunted =P sadly) and another beach where my sister fell flat on her face XD We reach the hotel, and decided to go swimming, I swim to the bottom (that i can't see cause the water wasn't too clear) and all of a sudden my knuckles hit the bottom. Okay, i found the bottom, come up and my knuckles are bleeding. They were stinging the rest of the trip =P Now it's dinner time and the waiter was HORRIBLE, it was SO funny though, i was crying. My dad asks for bread and they don't have any cause it was too old so they threw it out. He takes forever to bring the water, the salad, then the pasta and it's like chef boy ar dee raviolis. Mom decides, she wants cheese, tells the waiter, and about fifteen- twenty minutes later she's done with half her meal. When he comes back he comes back with no cheese and goes "Can i get you anything?" LOL there's more too it, but you just had to be there, we were joking that he had to go to Safeway cause he had to through out the old cheese. People were staring at us ^^"

To the next hotel, another two hours away, we stop at Silver Falls along the way and mom decides she wants to walk the whole thing. 7.1 miles they said and they said it was easy, you can finish in about two hours. The first hour and a half i was feeling happy and childish, chasing after the butterflies that were everywhere. After that i got tired... the dirt trail was uphill, downhill, muddy, slippery, rocky, spiderwebs EVERYWHERE (i was constantly slapping at myself. i don't care about the other bugs, it's just the spiders and i swear i am an eight-legged creature magnet). My feet hurt, i need to go to the bathroom, I'm tired, it's hot and we are all alone because we were the family stupid enough to walk the ENTIRE THING. When I saw the lodge as we came out of the forest, i started crying T-T you have no idea how happy I was to see people and cars and food. People stared at me T-T It was NOT 7.1 miles, it was NOT easy. That was a MURDEROUS NON STOP 8 MILE HIKE. On the plus side, there were lots of pretty waterfalls.

The following day, we went white water rafting for the whole day (level 3 rapids), fifteen minutes to get there, bus ride to the river is two hours. I almost fell out of the raft... (no surprise). I was the first to jump into the river when we were allowed, I floated down the rapids twice when we were allowed. The water was like ICE, but after the stinging stopped and your body was numb, you were fine ^^ Mom said I'm braver than she thought i was. Anyway when you get out you dry hella fast though since the temperature was OVER 100 degrees. Lots of bugs. I now have mosquito bites on my arm and bruises on my legs. My butt hurts too >///<

To the last hotel, it wasn't till then that mom asked me what i got for myself on that three hour drive. I told her nothing. Yes nothing. I had been so busy looking for everyone else that i was stupid enough to forget myself. Mom wasn't going to let me leave without something. Jess called me a "selfless idiot". At least everyone else got something =P On the way we went to crater lake. VERY PRETTY. We stopped at their gift shop for me. Nothing. We continue to the hotel. Nothing.

The next day, we go looking for a store (that's open since most are closed since it's Sunday) The lady at the counter tells us to try Safeway T-T yeah, a souvenir from Safeway is what I've been longing for. I ended up taking one of the gifts i got for one of my other friends and instead getting them something else that had to do with Oregon. Then we drove home the last 6 hours.

In the end, I spent 3 bucks on myself total T-T everyone else was at least 10 to 15, but I guess that's okay. I'll just have to lie to grandma when I see her >///< (she gave me 25$ for MYSELF)

This whole trip I was looking for seashells though, I didn't get any, but on the dunes, the guide took us to a beach over them and the beach was COVERED with them... and I was strapped down in the seat, not allowed to get out... I had to cross sand dunes to get there T-T


Things I learned about Oregon:

You can't get Coca Cola anywhere

You don't pay tax

It's illegal to fill up your own gas tank

People are strict rule followers

Everyone is REALLY friendly

People obsess over agates (stones found on the beach... never found any of those either)


All in all, a fun road trip. I'm in pain right now, but it was fun ^^



Well that's it for now.

Bye~

Jenny

So this is Jenny everyone, from my book Skull Book. She is Emily's older sister and is..... i think I'll make her 11 years old =) she is also a villain. But a cute one =D and on the plus side, i really don't see anything wrong with this one, YES~~~!!!!!! it's perfect, no flaws, I'm REALLY happy with this one although the cross strings on the dress took FOREVER but yay X3

And if you can read the little thing below her name it says "I'm too old for dolls"

(3) I Love You: Hanafubuki

Hyde and Megumi held hands as they strolled beneath the blooming cherry blossom trees, their petals almost as pink as Megumi’s blushing cheeks. They fell in the direction of the warm breeze and spun, dancing in irregular patterns above their heads until they gently lay in the grass. It was like warm pink snow. The air was sweet with their aroma and rich with beaming sunlight. Megumi looked up between the branches at the cloud-blotted sky. The sun flickered as they walked and forced its heat past the leafy shade. They were in the middle of a flower blizzard, reminding her of all of those romantic animes she’s watched on lazy afternoons when she had noting better to do.

Megumi felt particularly cute today in her new spring dress. When she was buying one, she had made sure that the straps on it were stringy. Not only to help keep cooler, but also because she knew Hyde liked them. She stepped lightly in her pink sandals, feeling the blades of grass tickle at her toes as they happily swung their arms between themselves. Megumi couldn’t be happier.

“I’m glad it’s just you and me these next two days,” Hyde smiled.

“Me too,” she giggled. “Oh, hey, look over there.” She pointed to and area off to the side.

“Where?” He turned and faced the other way. Once he did she slipped her hand out of his grip, tapped him on the shoulder, “Tag!” and made a run for it. Hyde’s mouth fell open and a big smiled spread across his face. He chased after her.

Megumi wove her way through the trees and across the grass. She circled a tree, running her fingers across its coarse bark as Hyde finally caught up. Now a tree stood between them and she shyly hid her face behind it. She felt like an innocent little lamb running away from the big bad wolf, in a playful way of course. Moments like these, she wished would never end. She wished they could just stay in the park, playing tag for the rest of eternity. Megumi bit her lip at the thought of it and smiled. She also smiled at Hyde, who had an adorable grin on his face. He’s always looked good in black. Then again, he looks good in anything.

As she darted to her right, Hyde quickly blocked her way. She tried the other direction and he caught her there too. Then the turned and ran to some other trees behind her. Too late, he folded his arms around her stomach and she felt herself being pulled backwards, her feet suddenly leaving the ground. He spun her around, the two of them laughing as if they were the only people in the entire world. He let her down, took her hand, and twirled her into him. They faced each other, exchanging closed lip smiles. His eyes softened.

“I want you all for myself, Megi-chan. That’s selfish, isn’t it?”

She felt a fluttering in her chest, like a thousand butterflies suddenly taking flight all at once inside of her. She could almost hear the rhythmic beating of their quiet wings. “That’s sweet,” she breathed.

The petals tumbled through the air, passing over their faces and landing in their hair. Hyde lifted his hand over Megumi’s head and carefully combed out a tiny petal. He pressed it gingerly against his lips.

“Then I’ll be selfish and sweet,” he delicately pressed it to her lips. At that moment, her heart had turned to mush and she breathed shallowly. He felt her tickling breath on his fingers as it entered and left through her nose. He slid the petal over her mouth, down her chin, and then released it to the wind. Tilting her head up he angled down and kissed her affectionately. When he broke away, Hyde kept her close. Enveloped in his arms, Megumi snuggled up to him and buried her face in his shirt.

After a few moments, she looked up to him kindly. He looked back with the same expression. Taking her hand again, they continued through the park.

“Come on,” he said. And Megumi followed, contently strolling by his side. Still yearning for this to never end.

(2) I Love You: Good Morning To You

Hyde decided to stay a little bit longer in Tokyo before finally flying back home. Megumi didn’t mind though. She’s pretty much gotten used to living out of a suitcase. After all, being the girlfriend of the hottest Japanese rock star, wasn’t supposed to be totally luxurious. There were downsides too, but luckily not too many, and definitely not anything she couldn’t handle.

Megumi was awake, but had stubbornly refused to open her eyes to the sun flooded room. She didn’t want to get up just yet. Not when she was all warm and snuggled up under the covers with Hyde. She didn’t want to leave his side. So she remained still and unconscious to Hyde’s watchful and dark honeyed eyes.

He smiled at the sight his sleeping beauty. One kiss on the lips really would be all it would take to wake her up, but he left her for now. It was a long alcohol intoxicating night and she needed her beauty rest. Hyde lay shirtless on his side and rested his head on the palm of his upright arm. The other was gently laid across Megumi, who had curled up against him in the middle of the frigid night. Or at least, that was her excuse.

Megumi’s head restfully lay upon the fluffy white pillow beside his, her chestnut hair splayed out behind. Her lips, soft and pink, perfectly curved and undisturbed. Eyelashes fluttered slightly, and she shifted a little closer to him. He felt her skinny arms bend up against him and the sheets ticklishly slid off, reveling her bare shoulder. She was beautiful.

Hyde dragged his fingers over her skin before pulling off the sheets a little further and kissing it gently. She smiled.

“You little trickster, pretending to be asleep,” he exclaimed and tore off the covers. He tickled her sides as punishment and Megumi squealed.

“Stop! Stop!” she cried laughing.

Hyde paused and got on top of her. He kissed her lips. Then he glanced down at her body, tightly wrapped in a pink silk nightgown. He rubbed her shoulders under the straps and touched her chest with his lips. Catching her off guard again, her tickled her.

“Hyde!” she struggled playfully, “No!”

He laid down giggling and now Megumi was hovering over him. Her eyes went down to his black boxers then up to his naked chest and back to his gorgeous face. She felt her cheeks flame up, but Hyde gave her a closed lip smile and stoked them. She put her hand over his to hold it there and smiled back. He was warm. He was gentle. He seemed to sparkle in the morning light, like an angel from heaven.

“You’re so cute Megi-chan.”

“You’re cute too,” she said shyly. And gave him a kiss. Hyde carefully put his other hand up behind her head to keep it in place, nice and low. He slowly kissed her, over and over again. She closed her eyes, feeling the inside of her melting away. Then he bent his arms around her waist and pressed her into him. Hyde could feel her weight on his body as she fingered his tangled coffee hair.

“We should get up,” Megumi said sadly, regretting that smile from before.

“I don’t want to.”

“Me neither, but…” she thought for a moment, “we can go get breakfast. Are you hungry?”

He shrugged.

“Well, I don’t want you to be late for the final tour meeting.”

“I won’t be. What? Are you trying to get rid of me?”

“N- No! Of course not!” she said. “I would never do that. I want you here. I always want you here.” She buried her face in Hyde’s chest, hoping there wasn’t that misunderstanding. He laughed.

“I was kidding. I know you want me here.” He kissed her worried head before saying, “Come on. Let’s go downstairs.”

Megumi rolled off and Hyde sat up on the edge of the messy bed. She crawled over to sit beside him. He leaned over, kissed her, then got up to head for the bathroom. When she heard the door lock, she sighed and collapsed onto the covers, her hand running over the warm place he was just laying on. Lying on her back, she listened for the bathtub water to start. And then she closed her eyes and thought of him, sitting in the steaming water as she waited for her turn.

Emily and Doll

So this is my little girl Emily from my book Skull Book. She's kind young and she's blond. She is also one of the main villains XD she's cute, I did a good job on this one, although the arm around her waist still looks a little weird to me... I couldn't fix it T-T so oh well, better luck next time. I think I'm going to start working on more chibi stuff and umm... turning my friends into anime XD yes I'm going to be that daring, so friends, don't get mad at me if yours turns out bad XD

Page 60!!!!! XD

Yay~ I'm at page 60, but I need to go back and fix, edit, and rephrase like, EVERYTHING!!!!!! so yeah, that sucks... umm.... I've also FINALLY gotten down the plot for one of my other novels, this one is for my realistic fiction. I think I'll call it Star Tracker. Not sure though ^^" Umm, I'm now in the process of memorizing Katakana, SO HARD, but I'll memorize it soon enough XD should also do some more drawing, reading, and learning more vocab.... Well, I'll do some of that tomorrow ^^
Nighty-night~

(1) I Love You: The Hotel Room

Megumi looked out over the gleaming city of Tokyo while sitting contently on the soft hotel bed. No balcony and the window—taking up an entire wall—didn’t open, but the view was still pretty spectacular from the 32nd floor. From way up here, she can overlook the lively city lights feeling like a fairytale princess in her tower, awaiting her prince. And speaking of prince, where was Hyde? Probably still drinking and partying with the band and some other friends. It’s been four hours since the concert, and Megumi had had enough excitement for tonight. So she left a little over an hour ago, exhausted and heavy eyed.

Suddenly coming through the door, Hyde pushed it open and stepped into the large quiet room. As the door closed and locked itself, he gazed at Megumi still in her dress. She had pulled open the long red curtains of the window and was now seated at the edge of the queen sized bed parallel to it. He smiled.

Megumi listened to him come in, but was too lazy to turn around and instead pulled her legs up to her chest and rested her chin on her knees. Hyde quietly walked over to her and set down the glass of wine he had in his hand onto the nightstand. He peered at her.

“You didn’t wash up yet?”

Megumi shook her head.

“How come?”

“Too tired…” she yawned covering her mouth and let down her bare legs, her feet gently padding onto the carpet. Hyde bend down on his knees in front of her then crossed his arms on top of her thighs and laid his head in them. “I’m tired too,” he sighed.

She stroked his head, matting out his wild, fluffy soft hair. It was like petting little stray kitten that had tirelessly collapsed into her lap. Hyde looked up at her with those splendid mohogany eyes. They glimmered in the dim lighting and made her smile. Extending his hand up to her cheek, he softly caressed it and whispered.

“You’re too beautiful for words, Megi-chan.”

She giggled with embracement then Hyde stood up. He placed his hands over hers and held them tightly. Leaning over, he carefully placed kisses on her cheeks and forehead. She felt like there were butterflies all over the room. Finally, he lightly brushed his lips over hers and breathed shallowly, hesitating. Hovering for a single moment before pressing his lips against hers lovingly.

Megumi felt her breath leaving her body, and found it even harder to breathe it back in. She felt his tongue slowly drag across her bottom lip and slipped it back into her mouth. He twirled it around hers, pulled away, and then kissed her lips again. His hands let go and crept up her naked arms. He slowly lowered her down onto the bed. Hyde hovered over her body as she wrapped her arms around his neck.

Now he sucked on her bottom lip while feeling up and down her waist with one hand, using the other one to keep himself up. Megumi felt his rough, guitar player-fingertips slide down the middle of her chest. He tenderly moved down to her neck and bit the gem on her necklace. He tugged at it for a moment, keeping it in his mouth and kissed her collarbone. The gem slid from his mouth and he kissed her lips again. Again, and again, slower, gentler, shallower, until it faded into nothing, and he pulled away.

She let him out of her embrace and he sat up straight. It wasn’t till then that she realized she was between his legs. He sat on her thighs and ran his hands over Megumi’s stomach. She looked up at that beautiful boy who smiled down at her. He had his tight black tank top on and fitted jeans. The slender muscles on his arms were more defined when he wore that shirt, and it made her blush.

“You’re so cute, Megi-Chan. I wish I could spend more time with you…” he said regretting.

“It’s okay. I’m happy as long as I get to spend time with you at all. I’m so happy just being with you.” She beamed.

He smiled adorably in return. It made her feel all warm and fuzzy inside, like he had just reached in and touched her heart unknowingly. He was an addiction, a drug that she loved to get high off of. And she fell in love with him for it. She fell for him. She was still falling. She was falling hard. How much farther could she fall before she had to admit it to him? Before she couldn’t take it anymore?

She didn’t want to think about it and sat up. She tilted her head upward and he tilted his down till their lips touched. When he broke away, he pulled her into his chest and held her close. Megumi felt his heart beating in her ear as he took her into his warm embrace.

“I love you, Megi-chan.”

She felt her entire body suddenly heat up at those words and wrapped her arms around his waist. She nudged her head up against his chest.

“I love you too, Hyde-kun.”

Megumi said it. She meant it. But was he being serious, or just saying it just because?

I love you, Hyde-kun…

Sweet Dreams

So today I got up, did some writing, ran a mile on the treadmill (which turned out SO BADLY!!! 13:09 is my current mile time, I suck at running =P then again, I haven't ran in about one and a half years, so I guess it's not THAT bad), then I took a shower, went downtown with my sis since now she's finally off of school, came back, did reading for about 5 hours, ate dinner, and now I'm writing again, but not my novel, cause I'm not in the mood for writing that, so I wrote a Fanfiction of Hyde and Megumi X3 cause I'm in a lovey-dovey mood even though my love life SUCKS ASS =P but I felt like writing something sweet~~~~ so I'll edit it tomorrow morning and then I'll post it X3 so I want you guys to tell me what you think after you read it tomorrow kay?
Sweet Dreams~~~~ (VAMPS- Sweet Dreams)

Eaten By the Lion... I'm Such A Stupid Pig T-T

So today I finally get the guts to send him a text and... he's busy with something else T-T
I ended up just bothering him. I thought maybe we could talk for a little bit you know? but, I caught him when he was busy, and now I need to work up some more courage to send another text... I tried to approach the lion, and I was eaten...
LM.C.- Sentimental Piggy Romance
This song helps explain how I feel...
I'm going to keep trying, even if I do get eaten ^^"""
rawr =3

Faira in Human Summer Outfit

So this is my character from my series Never Seeker. Her name is Faira and this is her in her human summer outfit. She usually has her hair in a braid that pours down over her shoulder, but I decided to let her hair loose XD I'm particularly happy with the body, which came out unusually well, I'M SO PROUD T-T
I NEED to practice figure drawings ^^" so I'm glad this one turned out pretty well
yay~

Arigatou Hyde-sama~!!! ♥♥♥

YAY~ my friend finally e-mailed me back XD

So right now I'm listening to Rain by Back-on, it's hella cool XD and sadly I never got that one page done today, but oh well. Just more work for me tomorrow ^^" I'm going to try and get another anime drawing out of me tomorrow too. Hopefully this one will turn out better than the other one of Aphrodite I just posted. Umm.... what else can I ramble on about... oh yeah... VAMPS NEW AND FIRST ALBUM IS FINALLY OUT!!! OMFG!!!! HAIDO- SAMA, KAZU- SAN TO, DOMO ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU~~~~~!!!! totemo kakkoi desu nee~~~~ arigatou!!! X3

So still things haven't changed much around here. Still no support, probably never will be, but I have support from friends ^^" at least SOMEONE has faith in me!!! I just have to keep telling myself "I can do this! I can do this!" Just keep Hyde in mind. He followed his dreams and look at him now. TOTAL SUCCESS!!! I can do it! I can do it too! I know I can, I just have to have some faith in myself. Don't doubt yourself! You can do this! Who cares what your parents tell you???? You can do this!

GO DREAM FOLLOWERS!!!!!!

I Was Tricked By the Damn Caller ID...

Okay, so much for "friends". So I get a phone call, and I read the name, and it's the name of a certain special someone, I pick up excitedly and it's a different someone, who goes "how come you're not at ABC?" I'm like "what?" and then the convo kinda goes back and forth like that and in the background there's a party going on. Suddenly he goes "is this (my name)?" and I'm like "yeah" and he goes "oh... Oh! never mind, sorry, bye." and hangs up. So thanks guys, thanks for the invitation, and thanks for tricking me with the caller ID. I thought we said we were going to do something all together this summer, all together including me. But that's okay, I bet you just called the wrong (my name) by accident. 'Sokay, I mean, there are too many (my name)s in this world (way too fucking many). I don't care, I'm just here at home anyway, doing nothing, writing a book I probably will never finish, getting dragged back to reality by my parents, I'm too busy being annoyed by my sister right now, I don't have time to hang out with you guys anyway, I have other things I can do. I don't NEED to be with friends. I can draw, I can do shit, I don't need to see you guys.
That's right, just keep telling yourself that. Keep thinking you'll get that happy ending. You have some friends. GOOD friends. You're not completely alone, right? I mean, and eventually I'll get that happy ending. Eventually life will turn around for me, right? I'm fine. I can be by myself. So maybe right now I'm kinda lonely, it'll turn around...
Right? ^^""""""""""

Aphrodite in Her Human Snow Outfit

Okay so i drew this today... it's not that great T-T the feet are too small and she looks kinda awkward... I didn't mean to, I was drawing then erased then drawing then erasing again and I didn't even plan to draw Aphrodite, which btw is my character from my series Never Seeker. Well, from the shoulders up she looks good ^^" So anyway, this is it, I'll be drawing some more later...
I can't draw full figures T-T

Page 50!!! AT LAST!!!

That's right, I woke up with pen on my face cause that's how cool I am XD I was writing till about ten thirty last night and I ended up writing some stuff on my hand, little stuff I need to go back and edit. So when I woke up this morning I look in the mirror and I'm like "what the hell is that on my face?" I turn on the light and it's the black writing that was on my hand, except it was upside down on my right cheek. It looks kinda cool actually, the way it's angled and stuff. If only it wasn't upside down XD

So today I'm home alone from about nine to three. Tomorrow my sister gets to join me for two hours and the day after too. Then Friday till the end of summer, it's just me and her home alone on the weekdays and on weekends our parents are home, so, yeah.

Also... I MADE IT TO PAGE 50!!! that's right! SUCK THAT MOM AND DAD, I WILL BE A WRITER! ... hopefully ^^"""

How many of you have heard of Jin Akanishi? Hot, sexy, cute, adorable smile, fucking hot voice~!!! X3 Well, I'm obsessing over his song Care again. And Pinky. Such great songs. He has such a fantastic voice and body~ X3 sexy dancer too.
And how many of you know the actor Taylor Lautner? I love that boy X3 in New Moon I'm going to die. I'm not a Twilight fan, but I plan on watching New Moon since I watched Twilight already, and Taylor cut his hair in New Moon AND he transforms into my favorite animal, a wolf! XD How hot is that?! I can't wait to watch the movie.

Later people, back to writing, maybe some drawing today~ XD

Dreams or Reality?

You know, I feel like I have no time for anything. I have to do everything but follow my dreams. I have to study Spanish, not Japanese. I have to be reading for summer, not writing my own book. I can't draw because I should be learning how to drive. I should be doing other things and stop dreaming, but all I ever do is dream. I'm always in another world. I'm always thinking of my newest plot, or what I wanna draw next, or listening to music to test how much I know of another language, when I should be looking for drivers ed websites, and reading books in Spanish, or go do something other than what I really want to do. So I do spend all my time on the computer, so what? I go out with my family, friends, all summer I'll be going down to Laural with my sister.

I don't know what to do anymore, follow my dreams or do what's necessary for a concrete job. Both are important. I don't even know what to major in for college. Take my art or creative writing classes or go for something medical. I thought maybe I could just do writing on the side or something, but I don't want that. What if I can really become something fantastic? I'll never know if I'm busy with medical stuff.

So... Now what?

66 Pages To Go T-T

Another day goes by,

Yes it has been two days of summer now~ and i got only three pages done in those two days... T-T i need to be writing more or at least one or two pages a day. It's the only way I'll reach my goal, i have to, i must, i will. I think I'll get up early, like... 5:00 everyday to get an early start on the day and get that one or two pages done early morning that way i have the rest of the day to do whatever i damn well feel like instead of forcing myself to write with all of those distractions around.
So Monday i think I'll start a new drawing in my sketch book, an anime one, hopefully it'll turn out well ^^"
Japanese is going good, I'm doing pretty good with this manga shoujo book i have which is basically just a bunch of mini stories, pretty thick, about equal to three manga, all in Japanese characters, so it makes excellent practice X3 and the stories are so cute~!!!
i also played basketball with my sister for a little while, picked up my friends b-day present, and texted a few people, i'm still waiting for an email response from some of my friends and my cousin ^^"
Well, better get back to writing, only... 66 pages to go ^^"" (i only want to reach one hundered for the summer, but the book must be done in at least 200 pages or more)
Nighty-night~

First Day of Summer

so i went to the movies yesterday with some friends XD hella fun!!! just as long as i'm out of the house i'm happy ^^" we saw terminator, also i finally reached chapter 8 of my soon to be novel, still have a fatty ass long way to go though, oh well, i'm also teaching myself japanese, so first i'm going to finish up learing hiragana then kantagana.

So goals for this summer...

1. stay happy, H-A-P-P-Y, HAPPY

2. reach page 100, AT LEAST, on my novel

3. improove in drawing

4. improove japanese

5. keep up with spanish (don't forget anything so i don't have to re-learn it next year)

6. excersise everyday

7. do my best


I'm going to be n the computer like, all summer, emailing, music, writing, talking to friends. Oh! i aslo need to read some more too ^^" well, this should keep me busy during the summer, hope i'll actually acomplish some of these things, anyway, later people XD

btw, DBSK is HOTT X3

Things that have been going on since i haven't been here in a while

Konbanwa~

so yeah, i haven't posted anything in a while, so why not post something right now?

Ummm... life is pretty good i guess. We redid me and my sisters room, a few weeks ago was the anniversary of my uncle's death (it's been 5 years now, seems like an eternity to me though), got through star testing and midterms, close to getting my parents divorced but failed (yes i want them divorced XP), found some pretty awesome new music over the time i haven't posted anything (plastic tree, radwimps and more new singles and whatnots), and VAMPS IS COMING TO AMERICA!!!! OMFG!!! SO EXCITED~~ also I've finally befriended this freshman guy I've been wanting to get to know better (turns out he's Asian Mexican too X3), been doing some more writing more so on novels than poetry though, talked to my other guy friend who i haven't spoken to in a while and showed him my sketch books (he showed me his so i showed him mine and he says "there's some pretty sick shit in there" lol X3), I saw my aunt today, been emailing my cousin, still hating on my other cousin, reading manga, borrowed the book The Devouring from the library again (i stopped on page 45 cause it really freaked me out, but now i really want to finish it ^^" hella creepy though), playing cards, trying to get a little skinnier, struggling to learn Japanese (still mixing up the vocab with my Spanish vocab ^^"), shaved my legs, took a shower, talking to more friends... writing on my blog ^^" lol so yeah, life is still pretty boring other than a few events going on X3 (VAMPS HYDE). Oh! Their new singles are out and their first album is coming out next month X3 SO EXCITED~~

umm yeah, love life sucks (as usual), home life is difficult (as usual), hating hw (as usual), and i want something sweet in my mouth ^^" (as usual)

i wish life was more exciting damn it! and damn it! I'll make it more exciting! i gotta do something adventurous XD

so yeah, friends are okay i guess, some of my friends are being moody right now, and one of my best friend's moms is recovering from a surgery, my other best friend is still weird and out of it as usual, my guy friend is such a pervert ^^" still getting endless hugs and pets on the cheek from the most flirtatious football player I've ever met lol (he messes around with every girl he sees), thank god ken doesn't have tuberculosis, my Japanese friend's birthday is today so happy birthday to her (i got her a gift and made her a card today cause i just found out yesterday ^^"), some of my friends are at prom right now, one is probably skating right now, another is probably doing hw, another is probably out with friends, another is either out with friends or watching hentai, another is probably reading fanfiction, another is probably watching movies in bed, and others are doing some other stuff XD

I am i listening to music ^^ I'll read my re-borrowed library book tomorrow morning when it's bright outside~ XD in particular I'm listening to this group i found this morning called Plastic Tree, their Japanese and hella awesome XD I'm also sitting here... lol thinkin' bout some stuffs that's been happenin', pretty awesome, i just love these little moments and little things that you can just obsess over X3 so yuppies, I'm also tired but i not going to bed just yet. Maybe i should work on that fanfiction i started????? i don't feel horny enough right now though XD it's easier when you actually feel like it.

Oh! me and my mom got locked inside a carpet store a few days ago by the way XD lol so funny, the guy didn't realize we were in there and when we tried to open the door it was locked! We thought there was no one in there, but apparently there was and he left and locked the door behind him. Luckily i found a few numbers we could call and mom got a hold of someone. We waited for someone to come get us for about ten minutes. But I'll tell ya, those minutes go by like hours when your bored in a carpet store. So we got out eventually, but when we found out the doors were locked, we both thought of those horror movies and other bad things that happen after such random events ^^" good thing nothing bad happened

Well i think that's that, so... guess i'll go write something else ^^"

bye~

♥~Happy Birthday Hyde~ ♥

Okay so this drawing took me like... FOREVER!!!! but it's okay, i put all of my effort into it, cause Hyde always puts all of his effort into his work for us fans. But the only part that i like are the eyes T-T the eyes are perfect (thank god) but i think i messed up somewhere....

Anyway,

Dear Hyde,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You're 40 now but you don't look a day over 25 =3

Thank you so much for all of your music and all of the inspiration you've given me. I hope someday we can meet, cause i really want to know what you think of my writing ^_^"" Your art is so good too~ and you're so talented. Your a man who followed his dreams and made them come true. I hope i can follow your example and become huge success just like you. Gook luck on everything, and may your wife and son be well ^^

Always wishing you the best no matter what you do

Ravens Across The Sun

Daylights morning and twilight star
Shines in mirth on so many different paths
Through sunny lakes it stirs the water
And illuminates the vanilla clouds that drift in the atmosphere

Under our blue umbrella it warms my skin
Sacred to my soul and close to my heart
As whispering flowers sing lyrics in my ears
My eyes scan over vast sceneries of green

Traveling under the hopeful light
Glides a raven’s expanded black wings
It flies directly under the rain of gold
And cocoons the sun in his wrath

Even though the light no longer shines on me
I know it will come again to satisfy my thirst for happiness
Relinquish yourself to the blurred shadow falling over you
And prepare to embrace the new future brightness

The sun kisses my face and I smile
Catching the ravens focus is something I avoid
My light is my hearts sanctuary and porcelain butterfly
And I chase the eternal sunrises and sunsets for a better tomorrow

-SW~