Yes, No, Well, Maybe, No... Y-Yes...

I am so conflicted. There's this guy and I cannot fathom to you how good he's been to me. I've known the guy all though high school and he's liked me for God knows how long. He can be a complete and total asshole sometimes, but others he's the sweetest. If he sees that I'm about to cry, he'll sit with me and play happy music on his ipod for me till I'm okay. He's ALWAYS there for me. He understands my life and who and how I am and accepts it. But... it's just that we have such a great relationship right now, that I don't want to risk ruining it. The guy is practically in love with me. He's never gone out with any other girls in high school. I just... don't want to be another one of those girls who broke his heart in the end. He's not just a guy like my past boyfriends, he's special to me. He's me friend, and I don't want to loose that. I don't want to have to hurt him. I'm not concerned with myself here, I'm worried about him. He doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve or anything, far from it, but, he still has feelings too, you know? I really care about him. A lot. And he really cares about me. A lot. I just don't want to ruin that.

But then again... what if I end up really happy with him? What if he really is the one for me? On my "Perfect Boyfriend" Check List he only has ONE thing crossed out, and that's only because he's not Asian. The rest he either has it, sorta has it, or it doesn't apply yet. He's definitely not my type look wise, but he does have the other qualities. Although when he wears his glasses he looks kinda cute. I love the color of his eyes.

My Mom says no, because I flip-flop too much on the guys I like. I fall in love really fast, and I fall out of love really fast. But the things is, is that he's not like the other guys, I actually KNOW him. I know who he is, his likes, dislikes. He's obsessed with guitar and bikes. She says that she just doesn't want to see me get hurt.
My little sister says yes, because love is all about taking risks and we both have a strong relationship right now. We're comfortable with each other.
I don't know what to do. Not only that, I have to consider what this would do to my friendship with one of my best friends. Me and him are both scared of what she'd say.
So, yeah, I don't know. Anyone have any suggestions, comments, or input?


We kinda have a song... Death Cab for Cutie- I'll Follow You Into the Dark