Every morning of everyday, my dad will lock himself in the study room, where there is a computer, lock the door, and stay in there for roughly 2 and a half hours... What the fuck does he do in there for all that time? Well some possibilities came to mind. Maybe he's just updating some stuff on the computer, maybe he just sits there and watches TV? Nah, he's definitely on the computer... maybe he looks at porn? Cause it is a reasonable thought. One day me and my sis were looking for something in the study room closet and we found a motorcycle calender with girls in bikinis on them... What if he does look at porn?... Well it is a strong possibility.
So yesterday morning when he was out in the garage taking a smoke, I snuck into the study room and I pulled up some windows he had minimized, he was downloading software onto the computer. Nothing special, but then I decided to check the history... Damn it! he had erased it recently, but there was still some stuff on there from today...
I paused, then opened it up, none of these website titles were sexual. Most were just some sale stuff, listing new computers and software... but then one had the word "images" in it... Now why would he look at images?... well he might have just wanted to look at a computer design or something... I hesitated. "Should i open it?" I said to myself... Well, I opened it...
My heart sank... it was already bad enough that I already hated my dad, but this--this just made it worse. It really was porn, a set of small pictures put together into one from the Internet of a man fucking a girls ass and sucking on her vagina and her sucking his balls. I definitely saw it coming but... jeez... now what?
I closed it up and left as if I had never been on... It bothered me the rest of the day... I was uncomfortable with my dad already... now what? my sister doesn't know and I bet mom doesn't have a clue... I began to regret sneaking in there but, I guess it's for the best that I do know... now I know to be even more careful... So yes, I'm glad I know... but I can't tell mom and my sister... but... it's bugging the hell out of me. And maybe it's something I shouldn't be making that big of a deal out of cause yes a lot of guys look at porn as well as girls, but it's a big deal to me. It's a really big deal. It's different thinking your dad looks at porn, versus, you know your dad looks at porn and it's different from a teenager looking at porn versus a fifty year old man who looks at porn and lives with two daughters and their mom....... MOTHER F**KER!! Now what?! I'm stressing now... everything is just worse now... but maybe it was for the best...
I have hw... bye...
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